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Are You hurting The One you love

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Published: Jun 12, 2014

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got up the courage
to post this
from UnspecifiedUnknown

not looking for sympathy/advice/worry.

this was taken a year ago this month.
nothing is nearly as bad as this anymore.

hurting the one you love went both ways--
someone was hurting me
& i was hurting someone else not involved
with that & had been for years
by these things i did to myself.

florence knows:
youtu.be/OcEWGXr_JKk

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