joy-ish.

i have received two calls this evening
from my mensa genius man
from the hospital.

no one else has bothered
& he & i will be best friends
& i will keep him from 
shooting himself in the brain again
& maybe he will keep me
from cutting up my general
body-self again.

this is a good step in the right direction.
we are so awkward that our weirdness
corresponds & somehow makes it okay.

he is 
brilliant
brilliant
brilliant
& does fucking CALCULUS
for fun.
i'm sorry, what.
dude is crazy
but in an awesome way.
i'm so excite.

(i fucking hate that phrase
but it seemed apropos) 


i wrote some streams
about my hospital stay
but i don't know if they'll be posted.
they're just rough idiotic ideas
but it's all i've written for months.


that is all.